The Whole World Bathed In Light

18 Oct

Have you ever had anyone come into your life that brings an awakening? Love does that. It shifts and stuns and shocks at times. It reverberates goodness and resonates a peaceful rest.  We believe we can rest, that we don’t need to try so hard all the time. It allows us to begin to be ok with ourselves.
Lately, I have been more than ok with myself. Because of grace, I am finally realizing I have everything I need.

“What you don’t have you don’t need it now..” (U2)

It saddens me deeply that people go through life and their entire consciousness revolves around what they don’t have, what they can’t accomplish. Their energy is spent stressing about things they can’t control. I know how it feels to be tortured by that inner nagging, telling you you are not enough. It’s horrible. It’s hell.

Jesus came to give life, and life abundantly. I can say this, but I cannot express how this truth now floods through my body.

I have a friend who helped me understand grace. He lives fully and colorfully, and is often misunderstood or considered rebellious by religious people. But he is free. His dad passed away about a year ago.  I remember talking to him after it happened. I asked him if he was ok, a stupid question, but I didn’t really have a lot more I could have said. He told me that he was surprised how ok he was. He said he could feel grace, not just figuratively, but actually physically in his body. In the midst of his heart being completely torn apart, grace is what held him together. The inner knowing that God is so good, and so much just fully love.

I am astounded at how beautiful the world is, even in the middle of suffering.  As Americans, we go to a third world country and pity people living in inhumane poverty, yet the love they have in family and community is something we are so starving for, despite our three square meals and plasma TVs.

I feel like I am waking up in the best way possible.  I can’t get bored anymore, everything is truly amazing and full of grace and beauty.

Today I was eating an apple and the crispy sweet juiciness of it was nothing less then God. I could feel myself swallowing each bite, aware of the vitamins and nutrients giving me what I really need.  I feel that now, drinking tea, like the very act of eating and drinking is a miracle.

You know how people say when they have a near death experience, life suddenly becomes alive? All that was always right in front of them suddenly becomes miraculous, because they escaped death.

Maybe every day we are living these near death experiences, only it is really a death experience because we are dying to ourselves. Our old perceptions, our old struggles. With God alive in us, we are literally seeing things with new eyes- His eyes. I’ve heard that being spoken a lot in allegorical terms, talking about seeing people like Jesus does, but what if it invaded every second of our lives? Like this tea I am drinking right now is the most amazing thing, because I am tasting it right now. The sunlight coming through the trees, the trees themselves, the fact I am thinking and typing and words are forming into sentences, the fact you are reading this right now, all this is nothing less than a miracle.

Stop for a moment and stare at your hand. Look at the cracks and crevices, the way your skin is water proof, the way you are sewn together flawlessly. Miraculous.

We get this at moments. We pause our human experience and realize that the wonder doesn’t even come because of the beauty of the place, thing or even person, but the wonder is in the fact we are simply alive, experiencing all this. It’s like we see outside of ourselves, from above and just know that life is way more then science acting itself out.

We understand when we are in love and we can’t see anything wrong in the other person. We understand it maybe more then any other time,  when a new child is born. But  then we let the dirt and grunge and “ordinariness” of things settle like dust on our souls and we forget that life is a gift. We forget to see the babies toes and the sunlight and the leaves. We focus on the flaws on our hands. Often, it takes a child (or a child-like heart) to remind us of the beauty we once recognized.

But what if we don’t have to live like this?

What if we didn’t have to let the dust of the so-called mundane in, in the first place?

What if grace allowed us something more, something so much more?

What if beauty and wonder and awe and miracles and love Himself lived inside us? Isn’t that the opposite of boring?

What if the act of being aware of this opened us up like wide-eyed kids from day to day?
What if this awareness transcended all monotony, all insecurity, all tragedy, even the death of someone so dearly loved?
What if is allowed us to believe death was nothing but a physical reality of something eternally happening in each of us? We are already dead to everything wrong and self-centered, everything boring, everything dark.

And so, In Jesus, we are alive. We are alive to the light coming into the trees, to our taste buds enjoying tea and wine, to our feelings of rapture and excitement in people and places.

And so we can see war torn countries and broken families and our own ripped apart hearts, and know there is a redemption beyond what we can see, a redemption that has already happened.

And so we can jump head first into love without fearing loss.
We can give everything we have with no agenda.
We can create out of an overflow of what’s already in us.
We can look at our hands and feel our own heart inside our chest and see the whole world bathed in light.

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3 Responses to “The Whole World Bathed In Light”

  1. Kati October 19, 2009 at 2:29 pm #

    Our hearts are drunk with a beauty our eyes could never see. ~George W. Russell

    Brooke, what amazing wisdom and revelation in your words! The realization that God is Love and Grace and Beauty. Fully astounding and fully alive in us.

  2. brooke October 19, 2009 at 2:34 pm #

    Thank you Kati, it means a lot to me that you take the time to read my stuff and respond to it… I LOVE the quote.

  3. steve r October 20, 2009 at 8:07 pm #

    Beautiful. More people need to read this. Grace is all around for those who have eyes that can see the unseen. You have awakened to the Gospel and this is truly wonderful to behold. Thank you for sharing with us!

    This song came to mind while reading this. It is sung by a man who had the same awakening.

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