My thoughts
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Embracing Permanence
The other day I drove past another place that’s been erased from my past. The trees were overgrown, and I barely recognized the familiar road until I got to the entrance. I felt an ache in my gut: part anxiety, part sadness, part nostalgia, part relief, It’s the same feeling I get when driving past Continue reading
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Anastasis
It wasn’t cold, like I thought it would be It was warm, like slipping underneath a thick sheepskin at night Surrounding me, Telling me it was ok to let go I could see shadows as I struggled to keep my eyes open and my senses awake I fought, mostly for my father He wasn’t ready Continue reading
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I Fight Anxiety Through Taking Back Words
I’ve had this phrase rolling around my head lately. I keep pushing it back, telling myself I am ok. I say it to myself when I wake up in the morning and an immediate feeling of dread washes over me, like I did something terribly wrong but I can’t remember what it was. When I Continue reading
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Closing Thoughts on the End of Teen Mania
I close my eyes. The music is so loud it shakes my insides. I say a quick prayer of gratitude thanking God I am there, thanking Him that I get to be a part of this “movement of passionate young people.” I open my eyes. The lights and sounds make the atmosphere overwhelming to my senses. Continue reading
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Fear Not The Passing Of Time (Live Forever)
Here we are again. A blank calendar. A twinge of hope. We count the previous hardships. “Things will be better this year,” We say, “They have to be.” One year folds into the next, creases in a paper that blows away at the slightest wind. For a moment, we stand still and see the rate Continue reading
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How The Light Gets In
Dear One, I know you’re tired. I can see it in the dark half-moons under your eyes, and they way they’ve lost their shine. I see you when you lie awake at night, wondering how you got to this place. I know you’ve tried so hard. To keep your family intact. To keep your head Continue reading
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Sex & Shame (Jesus was a Bastard)
I am going to talk about sex. And adultery. And abortion. (Just another fun Tuesday night.) I don’t do stuff like that on my blog. I am not really a fan of controversy. But I feel like I need to add my voice to the madness. We’ve all read the headlines lately. So many emotions. So Continue reading
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When I am Feeling Lost
Sometimes I feel lost. Lost in my head. Lost in worry. I forget I am not doing life alone. I tend to try to go at it by myself, and I know that isn’t healthy. Sometimes I forget simple child-like faith is all I really need. I’ve done a pretty good job rejecting religion, but Continue reading
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Life, Death & Easter Baskets
I made an Easter basket for the first time today. I wandered the aisles in the store and let my daughter choose between a bunny and a duck. I never did Easter baskets growing up, or egg hunts. It wasn’t the “Christian” thing. While I was throwing together an awkward last-minute basket for my baby, Continue reading
Brooke Gale LouvieR 